Letting Go

In my card reading, I often see cards that indicate it is time to let go of something that no longer serves you. I talk about this with my clients during readings a lot.

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Recently, I have pulled cards for myself that have had strong messages of letting go. One powerful card was “Orphaned” from the Wisdom of the Oracle deck by Colette Baron-Reid. In it, there is a female sitting in a nest atop a gray rock, curled up and very sad. The card’s message is that it is okay to let go, even though it will be hard. Perhaps we might be wondering where we fit in but the card further indicates that we will find where we belong, with our community of like-minded folks.

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The next two days I pulled from a new deck (to me) which was gifted by a friend, Sacred Rebels by Alana Fairchild. These cards were “Seeing the True You” and “Pandora’s Gift”, both with powerful messages. The messages focused on accepting me for who I am, and to look from within. Processing can take us to places that seem like the end of the world, yet, all is not lost. Let go of the fear, the shame and begin to accept my inherent destiny. 

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And then, I pulled two cards from the same Wisdom deck which were “Yang” and “Observer”.  These cards say it is time to act, and to observe from an objective distance. I share this with you all because I want you to see the synchronicities of these messages, using my story. 

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As I meditated on the cards and their messages, it came to me that I needed to let go of little April, the child who has held onto responsibility for others for so long. She grew up fast, the oldest of seven, and was expected to help out, take care of her siblings, way beyond her years. The last time I saw our old family movies, I remember crying for the little girl who was not a little girl. She was always picking someone up, cleaning things, like a little adult, and serious. 

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Serious is a word I would use to describe that me. I spent my adulthood in a career that was serious. I worked to help youth, developing programs designed to give them a better chance at success. We dealt with drugs, violence, teen pregnancy, family dynamics, poor education, all serious issues facing urban kids.  This seriousness of purpose fueled me, and I strove to be the best at it, lead my community into research-based programs. I was ahead of the curve in what I was doing. It was hard work, and serious work.

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Small serious April has been a beautiful guide for me. She has kept me focused and productive. She made me wary and kept me in the background while I let others shine. She helped me find others to support and nurture to be the best and then relish their successes. She was reliable and steady. But at this stage of my journey, it is time to set her free. 

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I had a little talk with her and told her it was time to be a child, to go and play, be free, laugh, and enjoy the impulsive activity of a child. I told her it was time for me to be liberated, as well as to liberate her from the responsibility of me. So, I put her in her best Sunday dress and asked Zelda to take her hand and bring her to her childhood. And then I observed, from an objective distance, as she ran and played, laughed and giggled, and was simply a happy-go-lucky child.

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I do feel “Orphaned” as I no longer have her with me guarding me to be responsible and serious. I am now looking deep inside to find the true me, the real me, the free me. I am taking the mask off from “Pandora’s Gift” to let light in, and to embrace the “Yang” of action.  All of these cards, from two different decks, on five subsequent days, have told me a story of release and loss, grief and sadness, to be followed by community and freedom, of being my truest self.

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This, my friend, is what cards can give us. In a non-threatening, safe way, the Universe selects the card whose message we need to hear. Sometimes, it takes a long time to really hear it and embrace it. I can attest to this – I have gotten so many let go messages and trust my higher power messages these past months. But, we act when we are ready. We understand when we are ready. We grieve for what we lose and then, we breathe, open our hearts to the Divine Power of Source, and allow the liberation after the loss to enter and show us a new way.

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I’m still a little teary having sent little April off to be a child. I really loved her so. I know I shall miss her as well. But, I know she is happy to fully be a child and to give me the gift of finding my own way. A way of laughter and lightness and true authentic magic of being me.

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