Kali vs. Zelda

I introduced you to Zelda in my last blog. Zelda is that nagging voice inside of me that likes to rear her meanness every so often.  She is especially present during the lows of my emotional waves that are part of my Human Design as someone with Emotional Authority. What that means is that my feelings are what drive me, sometimes seemingly on too much of an up and down seesaw, and it is important for me to understand what is happening during the low phase of the cycle. It is during these lows that Zelda comes on in and lets herself be known. She tries really hard to push the self-doubt button, the insecurity button, the “You’re not good enough” button and whatever other ones she can find.

I wrote that one of my 2022 goals would be to release Zelda’s hold on my doubts and insecurities, so that I can attain what I want.  I have to recognize that Zelda doesn’t serve my highest good. 

On New Year’s Day, I did a new year card reading for myself.  You can see it in my Facebook group at the Intuitive Sage Goddess Circle. Key points in this reading for me were to believe I can do it because if I believe it, I can do it! (Yes!!) 

My word for the year came from the 4th card in my reading which is “Faith”. Faith means complete trust and I must trust the Divine, the Great Spirit, God, Source. We are a partnership after all, and I need to have faith that what I want will manifest.

Other key points in this reading were to stay open for opportunities in 2022, be prepared that with the new might come an end to something else and that will be okay, and that I should trust my intuition and the wisdom it will bring. That was so reassuring.

I aways like to end a reading with a card from the Goddess Power deck by Colette Baron-Reid. So I shuffled them up, took out my selenite pendulum, and asked which goddess has a message for me for 2022. And there she was.

Kali.

Liberation.

The message from this card says I need to stop being held hostage by my victim story by hanging on to the old stories that no longer serve me. Instead, Kali was inviting me to become free of them, to break those chains and be transformed into something new. Claim your power, she says. 

Zelda is the old story. The victim story. The things that no longer serve me well (if they ever did). Zelda is the old story that says I have no right to ask for what I want. Zelda says I have no right to dream. Zelda says I am a fake. Zelda has all sorts of horrible things to say to me. 

But, in walked Kali with her message of Liberation. 

Zelda, move over. There isn’t room for you here any longer. 

April is going to diminish you every time you try to come in. Eventually, the door will slam shut on Zelda. Her influence is going to end in 2022.

Interesting, one of my cards said in the position of how to align with my purpose this year was to be prepared for an ending that will be bring relief, sadness, or both. The image was of a woman at the door, her bags packed, trying to decide if she should stay or leave.  Was that me? 

Or was that Zelda, with packed bags. Not ready to go but clearly knowing she isn’t wanted here. She may be sad to leave because it means her influence will no longer have any power. So Zelda may be sad to leave. April will be relieved.  I’m showing you the door Zelda. I have chills as I type those words.

So, I bid farewell to Zelda this year. Kali will be here and guide me through it.

I end this blog with the same two sentences of the last one: 

Where will you send your Zelda in 2022? 

And won’t it feel great to be free?